ahhh...
its been a while since i felt like this again.

to be absolutely possessed by such
tremendous fear and paralysing worry.

i remember when i felt like this so often-
such familiar symptoms.

not gonna tell what it is.
butthisfeelingalmostbringsback-

a hint of nostalgia.
its like being able to feel how you re being eaten
from the inside-out,
but you re contemplative instead of freaking out.

although this time i m sick of worrying.
i m tired of being so tense with wondering what
the consequences might be and all that.

so this time-
i shant. =)

i think i m gonna trust in my Lord and Saviour instead.
not by my strength,
but by His. ^^